The Life of a Featherbutt

[*i_eat_flutes]

\\le warning. Yes it is some what Graphic. So if you no likey, then don't read it. >_>


Another one.... i was in brux, sara come and gave me a dress, then.. Augustus came up.... when i saw him... all i could remember was.. that.. terrible dream... i ran to the forest... and he followed... I'm scared. it might have been a dream but it felt real and i was scared still. i ran back to Sigil... and i heard a soft whisper.. and a sword to my back. threatening to keep walking and to go to the festhall.

I.. i was afraid.. i did. the voice was dominant.. and then told me to go up the stairs...
and then... told me to... *tears started to fall on the paper* my hands were bound behind my back... and... all the horrible things happened... whispering in my ear were things, "So vulnerable. So petty. You are nothing." and the temptations to want it filled my head... i wanted to resist.. i tried... and he just held the blade to my back, to my wing.

The pain was very much real, the blade, cutting slowly back and forth like a saw... against the base of my wing. "maybe i should shave off your ears next.... and pluck out your eyes". The words are ringing through my head as i write. "You long for new things... Dark things"..

I soon began to shake.. violently. "You will remember This" and then a light shone.. a pale blue one. but the darkness.. the light had faded... The.. figure spoke seductively to me... i had kept saying no... but as i did... it felt as my own voice was fading... to nothing. not even i would hear it.

then spoke was a unison of voices, including mine. "No" The darkness roared, and tried to touch, but the light had only burned it back. "YOU WILL YIELD TO THE DARKNESS!"

"you have no power over her. She will not fall" the light had spoke.

"You will not hold her long.... When i'm done with her, she will grovel to my name and throw you away, Forever!" the darkness spoke.

"We shall see."

"when i come for her next, i will make her betray everything you stand for."

"you are the same"

... and then... the dream had ended... I was there.. in the public sensorium in the festhall... but i was alright, nothing had been done to me pyshically...
but.. i could have sworn i saw Selene leave.

i walked out...

-Featherbutt.

[*i_eat_flutes]

just.... grrrrrr! Sara acts all offended when i suspect that she has done wrong.... well dammit if you don't like being accused and disliked then don't do bad acts to cause people to dislike you! *She had written rather hard, being angry about it* i'm only worried about the clueless girl... and she was rather nervous while sara was around. i can only suspect since after she tried to get me, and mae, and mae said no too. just... GRR! ;A;

-Featherbutt

[*i_eat_flutes]

all i will say...

Happy Calisto is happy. =D

<.< >.> very happy....

-Featherbutt.

[*silinrul357]

(Posted with permission from owner)

A page of the journal has quite different writing. It has crudely drawn figures of a bunny, a stick-figure girl with leaves in her messy hair, and a stick-figure girl angel hugging each other. Written all over the page is the word "fluff" and "hug fluff," and a small caption under the hugging picture in sylvan "bestest friends ever"